“I may not be much, but I am all I think about. -heard at a meeting
The Big Book warns us over and over again about selfishness and self-centeredness. It is the root of all of our troubles. It has the power to actually kill. It blocks us off from the sunlight of the spirit. Notice that these things occur due to selfishness—not drinking. When all we do is think about ourselves, we are in trouble.
In my self-centeredness, I had no room for God. Everything was about my trying to set the stage, arranging the actors, and hoping it would all come off all right. I was always disappointed when my show was not a big hit and people were not giving me the accolades I thought I deserved. The Step Three reading in Ch. 5 “How It Works” really spoke to me. For the first time I could really look at my own conduct and my own reliance on self as a serious problem.
I am so grateful that I now have the ability, on a daily basis, to step out of self and be useful to others. I can now sense what others’ needs are and what their perspectives are. I have a Higher Power who works in my life to show me other people. I am no longer trying to run the show because I am no longer relying on myself for the answers. What a relief!
Today’s Prayer
God, relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better do thy will (from the Step Three Prayer).