“We trust infinite God rather than our finite selves.”
-Alcoholics Anonymous p.68
Scary and difficult circumstances force me to look at the proposition that either God is everything or He is nothing with incredible uncertainty. Can I really trust God with the things I am most afraid of? A surgery? A divorce? A terrible illness in a loved one? Legal troubles? God, are you really going to be there for me, or have I been working this program for nothing?
I can and do ask God to remove my fear. However, I still have thoughts that pop into my head about the circumstance. I get so tired out trying to predict the future and what is going to happen that I finally surrender. You take it. I am so sick of thinking about this, God. Please just be there for me.
Today I have to believe that God is everything. I have to be willing to face incredible challenges with courage and a complete reliance on my Higher Power. God is in control. If I have to keep reminding myself of this truth moment by moment, then so be it. Only in this way can I have some peace in the midst of overwhelming fear.
Today’s Prayer
God, something else has come up that makes me very afraid. Please take this fear from me, God. Help me to find your peace in the midst of my uncertainty. I want to rely on you alone, God. Please help me with this.