The Pink Cloud
January 8 With Gratitude: A Journey in Recovery Daily Readings
We have all seen it: people come into AA on fire for the program. They are constantly at meetings and have a great time in the fellowship. Then, one day, they are just gone.
I honestly believe that a pink cloud anywhere in sobriety can be dangerous. It will take me out. Even though I have had some real struggles since coming into the program: relationships, illnesses and surgeries, my son’s diagnosis and chronic condition, and financial desperation, I have stayed in AA all of these years. I have never taken a time out and have a much deeper appreciation for the program and my sobriety because of all of my struggles.
It’s not that I have a black cloud hanging over my head. I have just had life in session. I was a single mother of a nine-year-old son who did not have any support and had to make it on my own: it was do or die time. The tools of the program were not an option for me: I had to do everything AA wanted or I knew in my innermost soul that my son and I weren’t going to survive.
Today things are easier, but not too easy—and I like it that way.
Today’s Prayer
God, thank you for the struggle. The struggle has kept me sober and in AA.