“Satisfy us each morning with your unfailing love, so we may sing for joy to the end of our lives.”
-Psalm 90:14
I no longer ask for what I deserve. What I deserve based on my actions before sobriety is not good. I know I am not alone in this. I lived my life in such an irresponsible way that I hurt many people. That is never lost on me, even after many years of sobriety. Therefore, I do not think I deserve anything. I live in a complete state of God’s ongoing grace, one day at a time.
One thing I know about God is that he is merciful. His grace and power stay with me as long as I stay connected to him. I do this through daily readings, prayer, and meditation. I also stay connected to him through working with others. Listening to another alcoholic or Al-Anon reaffirms the fact that we are all connected through God. He loves us all, and we love each other day by day through our actions.
God has loved me when I felt completely unlovable. He was there for me when I didn’t feel him and when I lived so far away from him. He is constant when I am inconstant. While this way of life may be optional for many, it is not for me. Without sobriety and recovery in Al-Anon, I am destined to live in the same selfish and destructive way as I used to live. I am not willing to go back there today.
Today’s Prayer
God, please save me from myself. You are first in my life. Help me do your will today, which is good in the world.